sigh, yeah i guess all i can do now is to let go. 

there's no more fight left in me, and if you're not willing to step up this time, i can't really do much about about it. 

maybe im just being temperamental, but i really can't stand the things that are happening. and having to stand on the sideline and being forced to watch everything i've tried to build up from the past few years slip away. 

i shouldnt have tried to hard to hold on.

maybe then i wouldnt feel so much right now,,

if i ever meant something, then you'd fight. but everything up to now suggests otherwise.

so i guess i don't.

great.

i think its time

a fresh start, some new people and a new place.

not like before. 

i think its time i just let go...:)

Ahhh

Times ticking by, but I just can't seem to find the motivation to study or even go near a paint brush these days.
What the hell is wrong with me?
The desparation to make my parents proud has even become numb in my dipstick brain.
*sigh

So.

I'm here
i'm there
i'm so ready to get away from everywhere

maybe disappear for a while and try to 'find' myself?
i don't even know who i am anymore - life holds no purpose.
i dont even want to go to uni.

. so why am i?
zomg im so emo